Well, I can't believe I never saw that post made by my dear friend until now, but she is truly a sweetheart for all her kind words.
I would like to begin this new blogging venture by clarifying, I am not a writer. I am not poetic, gifted in prose, grammar, or spelling for that matter. If your reading is for literary purposes, I suggest looking else where. But if you want to read about the constant fumbles, weaknesses, frustrations, joys, and goodnesses of the Lord in this girl's life then read on!
I graduate in 9 days....something about that is amazing and scary all at once. The idea of never having homework again is unreal and inconceivable at this point. I have learned so much and so little at the same time. Yes I have learned to start IVs and have given shots. I have seen babies born and surgeries performed. I can take a set of vitals with my eyes closed and have wiped my share dirty bottoms! What I have yet to figure out...how to cope.
How do you spend all day with someone, take them to procedures, give them their meds, hear their whole life story about their spouse of 30 years and the dogs waiting at home and at the end of the day find out that they have lung cancer? Six months to live at best.
What do you say? What empty words of comfort can I even begin to give? "You've had a good life?" "There is still hope?"
I know God is good, sovereign and just but how do you explain that to someone? Is silence truly golden or is it simply required by an emptiness no noise can fill?
I suppose I do cope. I bury myself in school, hobbies, the Lord and prayer...but somehow faces and people I see for one day ... they just stick. Does it get easier? Do I really want it to?
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